Unsent text message to Jordan

It's me again I guess trying to check up on you the way I used to before. When my heart wasn't breaking or having to be healed people say I shouldn't have been with you especially our age gap but you were my world. You let us break up peacefully but a part of me wants you back even though you are far far away in…

You cannot be holding a grudge this long. Especially when I do not know what the grudge is. Do you ever think about me? We connected so nicely. I miss you. Reach out, let’s catch up. What’s the worst that can happen? I’m not mad at you. I adore you.

The older I get, the more I realize how valuable time is. I have profound respect for the people who meet my effort halfway. When friends willingly pause their own busy lives, drop what they’re doing, and choose to show up just to be present and make real memories—it speaks louder than words.

I hate you. God, I ******* hate you. You made me feel like the ugliest girl on the planet and like nothing I could ever do would everrrrrrrr be good enough for you or anyone else around me. Truth is, you drug me down so far when you were supposed to be uplifting me, as your girlfriend. Then you have the nerve to make…

maybe we were not perfect for eachother but with you i felt less alone in this world.. I miss you sm.

Weekends are still really hard. I really miss you…this used to be our time together. The last month I’ve really wanted to reach out again but I kind of just think like what’s the point…I don’t even know if you’d reply to me…I think you probably wouldn’t.

But still…that doesn’t stop me wanting to. I want to so badly.

I re…