Unsent text message to Isaac

The older I get, the more I realize how valuable time is. I have profound respect for the people who meet my effort halfway. When friends willingly pause their own busy lives, drop what they’re doing, and choose to show up just to be present and make real memories—it speaks louder than words.

I hate you. God, I ******* hate you. You made me feel like the ugliest girl on the planet and like nothing I could ever do would everrrrrrrr be good enough for you or anyone else around me. Truth is, you drug me down so far when you were supposed to be uplifting me, as your girlfriend. Then you have the nerve to make…

maybe we were not perfect for eachother but with you i felt less alone in this world.. I miss you sm.

Weekends are still really hard. I really miss you…this used to be our time together. The last month I’ve really wanted to reach out again but I kind of just think like what’s the point…I don’t even know if you’d reply to me…I think you probably wouldn’t.

But still…that doesn’t stop me wanting to. I want to so badly.

I re…

Loin des yeux loin du coeur

My feelings were real. The unconditional love I feel for you is real. It always has been, and it doesn't go away. That's all I know. As for you, I don't know anything at all. Barring a conversation, that's the way it's going to stay unfortunately. I'm just going to have to get comfortable with that sobering thought.