Unsent text message to Gavin

usc what you do just leave my mother out of this please.

none of them are you. Both a curse and a blessing that is true.

if you’re friends and friends because you LIKE each other then why are you talking about me? why are you on the phone late at night talking about “you ruined my relationship with her” ? you both ruined the relationships we shared together. i ruined the relationships too, but im not sitting here miserable and crying…

you told me that you would marry me tomorrow if we were from the same place , does it mean you like me? if yes, how come i see way more flirtatious comments you used to write on ur ex’s posts than youve ever wrote in my private messages ?

It’s almost as if we haven’t stopped talking. And even though that’s not reality, it brings me comfort.

I mean that in the most non-selfish way I could..

Things are really scary right now & I have other people I can talk to like a few friends but what’s everything happening in my life right now I need you.

The past can stay in the past, I wouldn’t bring up anything romantically suggestive or dump my feelings or anything..

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