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It’s actually so annoying that I do and I’m on this ******* website again writing this but I do
It’s not like a switch I can just turn on and off, you know
I suppose you still don’t know me well enough to know how devoted I get when I choose someone
It’s frustrating bc no matter what I say you’re going to doubt it too
It’s always a balance on what I want and what I should want and need
And I fight it internally everyday
Can’t you just be both
My want and need
****
This is so annoying
What the **** actually lol
And still no one compares
**** is wrong with me
Whatever
What I say in therapy is right
It’s the model me
It’s what the model and healed me should say
It’s what’s healthy
I need to follow it
I need to follow it
I need to follow it…
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