Unsent text message to Shane

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I'm sorry I brought the pedophile into our story. After my dad died, I found new sources of attention, and he eventually replaced you as my "on demand " dummy, along with the puppy who provided continuous emotional affection and support. I was lonely and needed someone available, and I filled the space with whoever…

So you were being hateful and giving me the silent treatment all day Saturday. I begged you to tell me what's wrong. But we got up Sunday morning and you kissed me? I wasn't going to kiss you like i usually do every morning.becauae u had been a c_nt all night .What was that anyways? Later that night, we said, i love…

Every time i feel unsafe, i think about you. I think about that time i sent you my location, and you stayed up with me, talking about whatever to make me feel less unsafe. You were miles away, but i still felt safe knowing one soul in this world knew where i was.

I remember every time we reached out for each other when…

I once thought a manipulative smarmy **** was my soul mate and I only went back about 12 times before they 'crossed the line' hard enough for me to leave

my love is real but i am really scared , bc realistically theres 99% chance that we wont get a happily ever after so doesnt matter how things end between us always remember that I loved you and i will always love you.

There's no way for me to deny to repress any longer...I need you to know. It's time for me to cut the ****, let go of my pride, and tell you how I feel.

I'm getting to the point of the cost of being silent is heavier than the cost of taking a chance.