Unsent text message to Sydney

I gave you my truth,

then waited in silence.

Hoping for words,

but met with absence…

When i saw how much weight you had lost over the past year it honestly shocked me. You have always been small but jesus. I know u just want to say u hate me and all the other usual stuff but I'm honestly just concerned about you. I told u that you're special to me, i sure didn't tell anyone else that. Its because u…

I have this distinct feeling that this new life of yours isn’t going as amazing as you thought it would. Or maybe it’s my hopes. I’m not sure yet, but what I do know, I hope it fails miserably and you continue to learn that you’re the reason people leave you.

For a long time, I kept finding you in little things. A song playing in a café, a familiar street, a message I almost sent before remembering that we don't talk anymore.

I used to wonder if you missed me the way I missed you. Whether you ever stopped in the middle of your day and remembered us, even for a second.

Some…

I am touchstarved & a picky eater. I'd rather 'starve' then touch someone else. I know i can ask but the uncertainty of what today's about makes me more insecure then usual.

Can u pretty please come here ? They won't notice

As the post says I wish I can take your pain away. All of it. You have been suffering so long and life has been cruel to you. You opened up to me which for me was surprising looking at how we were basically thinking we will never talk again 2.5 months ago. But all I thought about is how I just wanted to hug you and…