Unsent text message to Richard

Why won’t you protect me

The way I protect you?

Why must I beg for safety

When love should see me through…

When I found out you had her cut your hair before our date I can’t lie I was repulsed. I’m glad I found out the truth, you’re still a two timer who lies to get what you want from people. But I still miss you. And our friendship. But you crossed the line and made me think this was gonna be something real. I had to let…

You’re a shut-in, and a burn-out, and I’ve never liked someone so much for all the potential they COULD have had.

Crazy that you’re recently 30 and still have all the emotional and ****** maturity of a fumbling virgin.

What you’re doing to me is cruel, cowardly, and juvenile, especially for someone I thought had some…

A Hail Mary.

Evidence of an open door.

My last attempt to rebuild that damn bridge.

Or, consider it nothing. Meaningless. Silly. Immature. Annoying. Toss it in the trash…

I am quietly quitting.

I am starving while giving you everything I have, and somehow I am still the one who isn’t giving enough.

You keep comparing me to the people before me, while overlooking the ways I show up that they never did. I don’t understand why loving you keeps putting me on trial against people who aren’t…

Sometimes, when I miss you, I try to picture you there in his place. This man who doesn’t deserve my affections.

He looks like you, but not enough. He doesn’t sound like you. He doesn’t laugh like you. And he doesn’t love like you.

Why couldn’t it have been you? Why can’t you have me like this? Where are you?

I wanted…