Unsent text message to Addison

sometimes I really do wonder how I'll look back at this as years go by.

will I sigh lovingly or disappointedly?

"oh, I was so in love"? or "oh, I was so foolish"?

maybe all of the above…

Today I found out that the Monstera Bulbasaur is a thing. It’s a variegated cultivar of a Monstera Deliciosa (one of my favorite plants). Anyway… I thought you would it think it was cool… if you were here… and I could tell you about it.

don’t believe everything just was looking into your eyes thats ir. while life is still in them. the truth is youstill have nothing right. i did cheat just like you i was busy with my other ex from AZ. so again your FACTS ARE WRONG because tn years ago she is the ONLY woman i was with SORRY TO BURST YOUR BUBBLES THATS…

You know, I can still keep you updated cause I do want you to know and I wanna know. I missed you this afternoon when you messaged me about the saffron. I haven't been sleeping well so I had a little nap. I saw you in my dreams again.

You ever wish you never met me?

I can’t keep holding something that was never meant to be held especially not by me Maybe me caring for you wasn’t meant to happen . Maybe wrong time wrong moment For a little while things felt easier but now I can’t seem to forget you . I know I need to forget you . I’m sure you’ve forgotten other than being the…

I’ve been strong. Maybe too strong. Because I know if I sit and think about how badly you’ve ****** me over I just might snap. People closest to me always say how much they admire me for going thru so much in my life and always being able to pull myself out. This time I’m not gonna lie, it feels like I can’t. My soul…