Unsent text message to Sophia

I hate you so ******* much for what you've done to me.

When I needed you the most, you weren't there. When I was already on the floor, barely holding myself together, you didn't help me up. You stepped on me and pushed me down even further. And somehow, you still expected me to give you everything.You always complained about how hard you worked, how I never supported you.

But I did.

God, I ******* did.

I gave you my heart, my soul, my time, my energy. Even when I had nothing left for myself, I kept showing up for you.

But you never saw it.

Or maybe you did, and you just didn't care.

Everything was always more important than me. And whenever I tried to talk about what was hurting me, you called me crazy. Told me it was all in my head, that I was imagining things.

But I wasn't.

I ******* knew.

I knew you were lying. I knew something wasn't right. And somehow, I kept forgiving you because I loved you. Because I desperately wanted to believe you weren't the person your actions were showing me.

I kept hoping you'd finally see me. That just once, you'd choose me the way I kept choosing you.

But you never did. Instead, you slowly drained every bit of happiness out of me.

I don't even recognize myself anymore. I used to have so much love, hope, and life inside me.

Now I'm just exhausted.

So ******* exhausted.

Your lies don't shock me anymore. Your cruelty doesn't surprise me. Your emotional abuse doesn't even make me cry anymore.

I just feel numb.

And that's what breaks my heart the most. Not just what you did to me, but what I've become trying to survive loving you.

I have nothing left to give. No more chances, no more explanations, no more begging you to care.

Maybe you'll always tell yourself I was the problem. That I was crazy, dramatic, impossible to please.

But I know how hard I tried. I know what I gave. And I know I didn't deserve any of this.

There's a special place in hell for people who destroy someone and then blame them for falling apart.

I loved you with everything I had. And I ******* hate you for making me feel like none of it mattered.