Unsent text message to Christopher

Overestimated your humanity, before. Now I’m overestimating your capability. My protections are enough. No matter what my nightmares say, you’re not Chuckie, you’re just some sad dude that hates me and can’t do **** about it, again.

One more foggy morning, one more trip down memory lane. What is there even left to remember? The only true thing I remember is your name. Everything else is just my imagination, or the memories of things I imagined in the past. The only thing I remember is the feeling you left in me. Or the feeling I grew for you…

You said I could trust you, you said I was your happy, then you just ghosted me. No reason no explanation. Just silence. Then to block and unfriend me with no explanation. How can I trust you when you always do this?

Loving you was exhausting.

Is it because you miss me or do you miss having someone to talk to? I've been hurting these last few months. So if it's for selfish reasons...Please respect me enough to leave me alone.

i would have loved you, no ego. i would go back in time for an hour just to get to know you more. ill keep silent about this from now on. ive been afraid of leaving the warmth from our memories but goodbye now. take care. be happy, and dont come back.