Unsent text message to Mason

I miss you. Or at least the thought of you. I'm sorry I ruined what we had. I'm too jealous and petty of a person, that even the thought of sharing you with another person -- uff, I couldn't bear it at all. I am too attached. That's why I severed our connection. Because I know you don't see me anything more than a…

Now that I've cooled off I find it silly I was this angry. Guess you can bring it out of me lol. I don't need to get rid of you. Nobody really likes you already except for your 3 friends. I just need to make my feelings known. That's literally it.

Sigh, this isn't even a problem anymore. You are already effectively…

Is it really too late for us to talk things through? Or to start talking again with a clean slate?

I’m sorry.

I hope the new house is becoming everything you dreamed it would.

I’ve thought about you probably 90% of my time spent awake since we last talked/saw each other.

I have anxiety thinking about what it would be like to run into you in public, something that is likely eventually given your recent move…

If you want me to, I can wear your face,

Laugh at your jokes, then erase every trace.

Say what you need, play the part that you crave,

Walk into your world like a ghost from the grave…

Please take an objective look back at where you were when you met and the choices you have made for yourself after your breakup.

Are you in the gym? Eating better? Putting yourself first? Taking care of your responsibilities? Did you seek therapy or give up some vices?

If you can answer yes to one or more of the above…