Unsent text message to Peyton

Every day i spend on here is like a soul sucking vacuum

I see couples fighting and people hating on each other

I wonder if that would be me and you one day

The crazy girl who won't leave you alone and the *******…

I miss you. Or at least the thought of you. I'm sorry I ruined what we had. I'm too jealous and petty of a person, that even the thought of sharing you with another person -- uff, I couldn't bear it at all. I am too attached. That's why I severed our connection. Because I know you don't see me anything more than a…

Now that I've cooled off I find it silly I was this angry. Guess you can bring it out of me lol. I don't need to get rid of you. Nobody really likes you already except for your 3 friends. I just need to make my feelings known. That's literally it.

Sigh, this isn't even a problem anymore. You are already effectively…

Is it really too late for us to talk things through? Or to start talking again with a clean slate?

I’m sorry.

I hope the new house is becoming everything you dreamed it would.

I’ve thought about you probably 90% of my time spent awake since we last talked/saw each other.

I have anxiety thinking about what it would be like to run into you in public, something that is likely eventually given your recent move…

If you want me to, I can wear your face,

Laugh at your jokes, then erase every trace.

Say what you need, play the part that you crave,

Walk into your world like a ghost from the grave…