Unsent text message to Ella

My wife is crying because my 12 y/o son ate her peanut m&ms…save me from this hell hole. I know you see my posts.

i think i may be royally f*ckd from dating for the rest of my life. that’s not really your fault, but the part you played definitely didn’t help. the whole relationship was bonkers from the get-go, you knew that as well as i did. i do think it’s safe to say that after all this time, did it not just change the way i…

Why can't two souls be content on being together without a care in the world. I don't care what anybody I found some with you the world's going to end today I would be content if I was next to you I miss you I miss us I miss us so much that it hurt me everyday why cant I see you why can't we speak why can't we lay…

There’s been so many excuses for why you lied and cheated and why you kept lying. Now you’re telling me that you’re having seizures and that it might be a neurological issue. Why should I believe you now when it seems like just something else to save face.

The most amazing most surprising show of love... So unexpected. Thank you so much! I am loved.

And when you leave this world, may no more tears fall in your name… as you fade from memory, may all those you harmed find peace and light once more.