Unsent text message to Connor

Just need somewhere to put this and leave it.

You played me for two years. I poured into you. I lifted you up. I gave you second and third chances.

I gave you every opportunity to grow and evolve. But you’re so ******* afraid of change you never took any of those opportunities.

I’m genuinely so sick of men staying around…

Bullies remain bullies throughout life,

Bullies always hang around in large numbers,

Bullies Hide behind people & job titles,

The keyboard cartel would never ever address someone in reality with confrontation…

I want us to talk.

If you gave me a sign. Like responding to my last message, or even adding me on socials. I can take it from there.

I do want us to reconnect. I just need to know it's safe, and you are ready to take the step.

Meet me halfway, and I can take it from there…

I thought of you several times today,even though I try so hard not to. There’s an ache in my chest that ***** me at odd hours,flashbacks and memories I try to ignore. I really wish I didn’t reopen the door.

I really wish I could contact you this is so dumb. I mean I can and it's not like forbidden or anything but I know you'd rather be left alone but ughhghhh. I miss you and your cat and I'm like almost certain you don't go here but if you do I feel like you'd know in seconds this is me. I'm just rambling sorry i really…

I want to talk to you.......