Unsent text message to Nathan

I feel nothing anymore; I’ve been used by her. I was cast aside in the most awful way after a relationship of nearly eight years and two children—whom, incidentally, I am no longer allowed to see. What possessed you to do this? Was it because I found out who you really are? But all our problems don't matter right now…

remember, in whatever story i tell you on Tuesday... you are Leo. got it? i'm sure you'd pick up on it quickly, but why not start with a little foreplay.

With Love.

But i just get anxious about messaging, especially when its been a little while.

its your bday soon tho, and i wanna ask if you've got plans for it. not bc i wanna be invited - i totally understand if you've got plans w other people. i just remember you saying you want your own bday this year. id like to know that it's…

it’s Sunday afternoon. if you don’t feel like cuddling I get it. no worries. I’ll just close my eyes.

Assuredly, he does know.  And he has known for longer than you are aware.   It took bit of time and a whole lot of patience, but eventually each of you in your own way has tipped your hand.  The important ones are known as well as confirmed and those that are not are unimportant at this stage.  For now.

Some accidentall…

I still love you. I probably will for a while. But loving you doesn’t mean I have to come back. I had to let you go, even though I didn’t want to. I hope you’re happy. I hope you achieve everything you ever wanted. And if our paths are meant to cross again someday, they will. Until then, I have to learn how to live…