Unsent text message to Amanda

And that's why I had to finally choose myself first. I wish you had been honest with your intentions in the first place. What did you even want with me? It wasn't a friendship, obviously. Yet it wasn't romantic either? Was it FWB? I would've been down for that. I would've reciprocated anything, I guess that was the…

would u see me as pathetic to attempt a another try at our friendship? or would u think its cute and brave of me to do so? would u see how much i truly want u in my life despite it all? or would you have no-respect for my efforts?

either way, I'm egoless when it comes to fighting for things i find valuable, as such a…

I don’t want to beg you to come back, but it’s so hard when you’re ALL that I want.

We had something special. I know you felt it too. I miss you every day. Sometimes I think I’m over you, then the ache comes back.

People tell me I’ll find someone better, but I don’t want better. I want you. Your flaws, your worst days…

I told you so many times before. You don't care about me. You care about you. No one else. You care about being in possession of me, like a dog. You gaf about being WITH me.

hey you. life’s going okay since we cut contacts july 30th. almost been 3 whole months without talking to you. it still feels weird, i still look for you everywhere. i still love you. i haven’t moved on, i don’t think i ever will. i’ve been able to look at pictures and memories without breaking down, ive “locked in”…

If you ever think you got it wrong, I’m right where you left me. 🎶🎶I will be here when you need me.