Unsent text message to Maya

I get it. I really do. I still hate it—you did exactly what I said you would.

I don’t regret anything. This was fun and I love you.

I’m not mad, but I will miss you.

Think of me time to time.

I haven't stopped being mad. But to quote my favorite terrible cheesy rom com chick flick, you can be mad at a person and still miss them. My loneliness has outweighed my anger. So on the off chance you at any point gain the courage to say something to my face... instead of about me behind my back while lurking on my…

Yet I want to settle back into it. I want to make your problems my business again and I want to ease your troubled body.

I wanted to ask you what was wrong the other night, you seemed so upset. Do you still not want to share what was on your mind that made you upset? I don’t want to pry or bother you with it all but it…

The first time I’ve cooked myself breakfast in a long time, my whole block loses power..

Well across to the hospital I go

You had a voice that could charm cobras out of their pots. *🐍🏺*👳‍♂️🪈It was beautiful and I really do miss you. I also pray you’re happy and well, even though I know we won’t speak again . I’m sorry I hurt you and I love you so much. Please know you made a difference!

nothing crazy honestly

i'd like to wake up next to you while the house is still quiet, neither of us fully awake and probably arguing over who has to get up first lol

make breakfast together, then hear the kids start running around

i'd teach them random **** i know and let them help me cook even though that would…