Unsent text message to Susan

That I’m left picking up the pieces. That I have to go to therapy. That I had to start over. That I cried myself to sleep for so long I forgot when it started. That I think of you everyday. That you get to move on and forget. I’m left here. Having to start from ground zero.

I think somewhere I would have to bring (NaHCO)3.

It hurts so much to be hurt like this by you. Youre making a mistake, but youre also making it so that ill never trust you again. Please stop this before I can only throw up when i simply think of you. PPlease stop doing this to yourself. Youre turning into a ******* monster and theres no way out once you do. Please…

I’m ******* done. This is too hard. I’m tired of feeling everything this intensely and having absolutely nowhere for it to go. Sometimes I envy The Vampire Diaries — how they can just say, turn it off, and suddenly they don’t feel anything anymore. God, I wish it were that easy. I wish I could switch you off. Switch…

A wound caused by someone you love and trust is a wound that hurts worse than one caused by an enemy or stranger. It lingers because the one you'd normally turn to for comfort is the one that caused it. I'm sorry. I wish I knew how to help you heal.

I hope when we breaks your heart, it shatters into a million pieces like you did to mine. But we both know that youll be at fault for its end. Because you always **** up everything good.

I hope it hurts. I wish nothing but the worst.