Unsent text message to Megan

I’m ******* done. This is too hard. I’m tired of feeling everything this intensely and having absolutely nowhere for it to go. Sometimes I envy The Vampire Diaries — how they can just say, turn it off, and suddenly they don’t feel anything anymore. God, I wish it were that easy. I wish I could switch you off. Switch…

A wound caused by someone you love and trust is a wound that hurts worse than one caused by an enemy or stranger. It lingers because the one you'd normally turn to for comfort is the one that caused it. I'm sorry. I wish I knew how to help you heal.

I hope when we breaks your heart, it shatters into a million pieces like you did to mine. But we both know that youll be at fault for its end. Because you always **** up everything good.

I hope it hurts. I wish nothing but the worst.

Your friends are your friends. My friends are my friends. This principle will stick

When you sent the text this Monday I thought you wanted to talk **** and disappear yet again. To say some final remark, to show how somehow against all odds, I had been a bad partner and friend. I immediately thought I had to make you talk. Only one way to do it. We met this Saturday.

I hadn't seen you yet and you had…

Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you. Every hour that passes I’ve thought about you over and over again. My life still feels vacant without you here. I’m kind of scared, I feel myself slowly losing comfort in the things I used to enjoy. Some days just feel pointless overall. Every now and then I still…