Unsent text message to Connor

Im not sure why, we both knew it wasn’t good or healthy. But I’ve so badly wanted to say I love you one last time. I’m still so, so mad at you for so many things. But im also very sorry for ever talking to you. I’m sorry I started liking you knowing how I get when I feel like that for someone. We would text and call…

For guys, love isn't the same. We have to prove our worth and our mistakes seem so dire. They never loved me for my looks. Or my personality. Only what I could provide. You know what love is. A lie we tell young people to set them in a trap. Or something like that...

Well here I am, all the way back to how I used to be. Full of self hate, recklessness, and what not. With you, life was worth fighting for but now this weight is sucking the life out of me. How we promised to get married next year and how we would support each other till the very end. I don’t know what went wrong ma…

Hi there, I do consider myself forgiven. It has taken me a while to forgive myself though. Moreover, I understand why you would not want to be reminded of times when you made yourself vulnerable and I responded incorrectly, albeit without malice or a sense of perspective. I really and truly wish I had taken a step…

I think I prefer the silence now , because nothing is ever enough for anyone and then I’m still left hurting

Just thought I’d let you know that today, missing you has just hit me. I shouldn’t feel like this, i shouldn’t be pondering on what could of been or how i could have fixed my departure but i can’t help it.

Why should i miss someone that treated me like disposable human garbage? Because you were there when no one else…