Unsent text message to Susan

Dear Friend,

The world outside is so dangerous and not kind. The ugliness is so heavy on my heart. I miss you dearly And the safety you afforded me during my lonesome battle upon these lands. The solace you provided feels so far, so distant and I’m desperate to feel your embrace for one more moment. I continue to fight…

hey.. just wanted to ask how you were doing. i remember you telling me that though you were surrounded by bunch of people and had friends you still didnt feel a strong connection with any of them welp now you’re in college and i do see your college acc alot and specifically i see you in those pictures , smiling.. welp…

Don't you miss me?

I hate this.

I hate that I was vulnerable with you.

I hate that I gave you the benefit of the doubt.

I hate that I trusted you could like the raw unedited version of me.

I hate that I believed you even though they say when someone tells you who they are, believe them…

I didn’t want no contact….

I wanted to marry you.

I still remembered when you kept calling me me back to back and I was busy with MY LIFES TROUBLES and I took the time out to hear would become one of the only times I kept that kind of info to myself.

Sad thing was the info would still get out so to a person you, come to find out treated more like a brother than you…