Unsent text message to Jason

Hey, this is what you wanted. Remember? A life without me. I’m giving you what you wanted. Now you can feel less guilty about it.

I was banned. It’s never been like this it’s bad. Im scared. I need you please I know my mouth must stay shut. I see you. Remember I’m a wingnut if my account is not active. I’m with you. Please I just need from you where to stand. Your mouth look at my face. It will save my life. No response is will not end welll for…

I miss you so bad love. I'm still thinking about you all day long. I catch myself looking at my phone way too much, hoping that you will reach out. I miss your head resting on my chest and holding you close. I miss your touch. The longer I'm deprived of it, the more I want it. We have fun no matter what we do. I miss…

With this I have no need for this account anymore. We have now left on good terms, with a divorce underway, and I think I’m finally ready to let go of all the trauma the relationship held for me. I’m comfortably numb from you. I wasn’t when that text first showed up, using a username we had both laughed at, you knew…

hey do you ever remember just being really surprised at how easy it is for you to put a hand on my stomach and catch my emotional disintegration and forestall it so i don't absolutely lose my ****? i would like you to know that that's a special skill you have & it's simply bc i love the absolute **** out of you and…

Our connection was so beautiful and I miss you every day of my life. I miss your love and everything about our chemistry. I had to stop crying about it and accept my decision to leave you, leave town, and forgo a future we could have had together. I let go on spiritual principle but my body, my memories, and my…