Unsent text message to Nicole

i hate it i hate that i am doing it i hate that im doing it for you

i wish i could talk to you like how we used to just once more

i miss everything and i just cant get over it

i wish we didnt get into stupid arguments during our last few days

i wish none of it happened…

Im really bad at alot of things. So much that I cant even **** up in the correct ways.

im sorry a i must have done something. Would seem i cant pick a person. You were the first person I picked and I cant even get you to tell me what I am to you lol.

S, you ******* suck dude... you were supposed to love me and be my…

Or mean EXACTLY what you say!

Tell me to leave you be cuz you don't want us anymore.

I heard you loud and clear. Again.

You got upset I didn't say HI or anything when you saw me…

If you're unable to accept my love, let me go.

If expressing how you feel is a chore, let me go.

If I only exist for you entertainment, let me go.

This isn't love. It never was…

TW, unaliving discussion

Did you really actually intentionally try to make me unalive myself?  Apparently, there are some offshoots of the manosphere (which u follow and are acquainted with) that encourage this. I'm kind of in disbelief, but there's reason to believe that that might have been your goal.  Sitting here…