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Since you broke up with me twice and abandoned me during my worst when all I had planned was a trip for both of us together to mark our 2.5 years abroad in my home. You let someone else destroy our relationship without proof, and for that I'll always resent how it took you to break me, to build you back up.
I know you always had doubts, worries, family problems and arranged marriages on your nose, but I wish you had told me the truth instead of breaking my heart, I wish you had sat me down and explained, I wish you had kissed me and told me everything would be okay. I wish you had never left me so abrupt, confused, sad and depressed all alone.
I wish you had listened to me one more time, stopped me in the airport in Italy, took my hand and looked into my eyes. I wish you didn't believe what others said.... I wish you didn't leave me, when everyone has always left you, cheated, hurt you and abandoned you.
I wish you had stayed ...the same way I stayed when I found out about your ex. I wish you didn't throw away 2.5 years when I was ready to cross countries for you.
I wish you never left. Because not once would have I ever left you. I wish you still loved me...the same way I love you. Life goes on, but nothing will ever fill the hole you left inside my heart that bleeds and cries your name every day, begging for all this to be a dream...and only wake up in your arms again the next day.
When you left, that day I didn't just lose my lover, I lost my best friend, my rock and the woman I wanted to marry and call my beloved wife. I wish it didn't take me to lose you to be where I am now.
I wish I could tell you I love you one last time. I wish I had more time with you even if our relationship wasn't the greatest. I wish I wish...M..I just wish for you to be by my side.
But this I'll never tell you. Because it took you to break my heart for you to find yourself...and all I've ever wished for really...was for you to always be happy, cherished and smiling....
I'm sorry.....that I still love you.
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