Unsent text message to Paige

The bittersweetness of being in love along with the longing to be with you and the sadness that maybe in another reality I am has consumed my mind. An endless unattainable future that feels possible because I can see it in my mind like a memory yet in reality it’s a flower on a high peak and trying to get to it will…

I'm sorry it came to this, you just told me you would never leave me be and so now ive created a challenge for you. You've been blocked. But I know we will always find our way back to each other eventually.

Good luck!

A lovely memory we shared popped into my head tonight . We had some special moments under the stars

And yikes

Yikes yikes yikes

Someone bury me in a hole

I’ve been so insensitive…

I’ll communicate better next time.

I’ll ask more.

I’ll check in more.

I’ll look more…

Words echo in my head In what seems like resounding waves I’m to much My kids are too much What do you really have to offer Connecting to what was said before You’re unattractive You’re too complicated I try use the good to block out the painfully true I’m smart I’m resourceful I can accomplish anything I set my mind…