Unsent text message to Grant

Even tho you said you’re not my friend that you don’t wanna reply all the time and to stop talking to you and to get other friends my heart still Carries you my heart still calls you my best friend even tho you were fake to me for a few years without me even knowing it. I will not find a new best friend since you left…

holy shi it was sooo good today. i missed u a lot. i really cried after i reached home. cried a lot. hate it that we cant be together. we both did accept it but somewhere it still lingers. what if we were together? things wouldnt be like this right? anyways i missed u a lot and i love you toooooo.

Finally realize that you don’t think about me when you don’t see me. Honestly. That’s worse than telling me “we need to hang out”, when I ask if you want to get a beer. You don’t think about me if we’re not at work, even when you say “it’s not the right time.” That sounds like there will be a right time. Brother it is…

After it all. Silence is, safe. Being alone has become normal. Disconnected from society & yet completely trapped in an endless battle of what & how to become free.

Letting go of the weight completely will probably be easier if I just ... leave it. Go where? How? No money & no car. What is left of my mission here…

She baits her breath with hurtful threats and hopes that I receive

To stoke my fears and draw me near and prays I’ll never leave

It’s just for fun They’re not the one It’s you and only you

She’ll tell me this and She’ll tell me that But she never tells the truth…

you’ll probably enjoy knowing that