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Why
Why do i hurt this much because of you
Its been 3 months since I last saw you, 3 months before that, i tried not think of you, and for a long time, it was starting to work, I felt like i finally moved on
Then yesterday before my choir concert, while in class, my friend tells me your here, in an instant, I fell back in square one.
I was scared, I felt fear, not the "im about to perform" fear, but the fear you get when someone is pointing a gun at you.
And even while I was doing my job around choir, if you were there, I would leave the room quickly out of fear and sad disappointment,
And the irony, I got a solo, I was singing a song called "ya no me acuerdo" (I dont remember anymore) that, in short, said "if at some point, I praised you, if at some, I cried out for you, i dont remember"
And in that song
I ripped a letter that was meant for you
I told myself that, that would be the nail in the coffin
But your simple presence took away all that work away.
And the entire time
And we didn't talk
We didn't exchange a nasty look
We just didn't interact
And I'm not writing to you because I miss you
But in the simplest term, Im still stuck wondering, why we ended the way we did, why, If you wanted him from the start, why you would drag me along, knowing how I felt about you, on an adventure together, why you would simply go quiet when you left, did you ever cry for me, even once? Why can't I let you go...
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