Unsent text message to Lucas

Hey you,

It’s so funny how life works, I wouldn’t trade this situation for the world, you’re absolutely amazing.

Stay in my life for good?

I know you probably don't want to hear from me right now, or maybe ever again, but everything happened so abruptly, without any goodbye or anything else. And now that I'm a little calmer, I wish I could have said goodbye to you and at least had the chance to talk to you.

I know that seeing all of that may have made you…

We're just awful together and awful apart, I don't know what to do anymore.

No you don't bb! You don't need another cookie. One or two don't keep! Miss you love you! Please lmk what doing. Is there anything I can do to fix things?❤️ Always your heartworm

Idk if you wanna like discuss some **** like adults, and I'm still not sure what happened I imagine it had to do with some of the poor choices I've been making. But, if you'd like to resume our friendship that'd be cool because I still **** with you and think you're a cool person. I can't change whatever happened but…

i got an interview to the combined internal medicine and psychiatry residency program at a place I love. this was my DREAM program before i met you. i feel lost, but i don't know if i can stay here for you when you are limiting our relationship. i'm hoping we make whatever happens work.

With love.