Unsent text message to Ella

i got an interview to the combined internal medicine and psychiatry residency program at a place I love. this was my DREAM program before i met you. i feel lost, but i don't know if i can stay here for you when you are limiting our relationship. i'm hoping we make whatever happens work.

With love.

I went to the pub quiz we always talked about wanting to go to, I can't lie I would've had a much better time with you, at least you would've actually wanted to be there

When we said bye to each other with a tight hug and a chaste kiss on the lips, I pecked his cheek where he place a kiss on the back of my palm and pecked my forehead. We side hugged our cheeks pressed together and eyes closed. I miss him so much.

Don't make a big deal out of it.

Okay. Bye.

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