Unsent text message to Ethan

Idk if you wanna like discuss some **** like adults, and I'm still not sure what happened I imagine it had to do with some of the poor choices I've been making. But, if you'd like to resume our friendship that'd be cool because I still **** with you and think you're a cool person. I can't change whatever happened but…

i got an interview to the combined internal medicine and psychiatry residency program at a place I love. this was my DREAM program before i met you. i feel lost, but i don't know if i can stay here for you when you are limiting our relationship. i'm hoping we make whatever happens work.

With love.

I went to the pub quiz we always talked about wanting to go to, I can't lie I would've had a much better time with you, at least you would've actually wanted to be there

When we said bye to each other with a tight hug and a chaste kiss on the lips, I pecked his cheek where he place a kiss on the back of my palm and pecked my forehead. We side hugged our cheeks pressed together and eyes closed. I miss him so much.

Don't make a big deal out of it.

Okay. Bye.

I’ve poured out my history to you, not to just yap but for you to understand why I am the way I am Maybe it was a mistake, letting essentially a stranger know so much about yourself Maybe it wasn’t There’s not much you can do with that information but to just have it You know the **** I’ve been through, a lot even if…