Unsent text message to Jordan

Don't make a big deal out of it.

Okay. Bye.

I’ve poured out my history to you, not to just yap but for you to understand why I am the way I am Maybe it was a mistake, letting essentially a stranger know so much about yourself Maybe it wasn’t There’s not much you can do with that information but to just have it You know the **** I’ve been through, a lot even if…

I’m nervous about you (friend) coming over this weekend. You suggested we have a sip and paint night together. It sounds like fun, and I’m all for it. I’m just wondering, if we have too much to sip, what we’ll end up painting. Truth be told, it’s been a long…

I hope the world is good to you That someone will find interest and interact with you To build a relationship that withstands time itself My sweetheart, you deserve the world, and I’m sorry I never saw that Whoever has you next, I hope they treat you with kindness and sweetness as you deserve 🫶🏼

You never got to see the way you changed who I was as a person. I didn't know you for more than a few months, but I'm still glad I did. You changed my fundamentals, my views, and Morales. You changed the way I saw the world, because it was so much brighter with you around. Even in the dead of night, as long as you…

You were outside work, lounging in the sunshine, talking on the phone. Turquoise top. Blue jeans. Looking so ******* beautiful.

For a second, everything in me wanted to walk over to you. To say hello. To hear your voice. To see you look at me.

But I didn't.

I walked away because I know you don't want to see me. I know…