Unsent text message to Amber

I am beginning to think maybe I’m too messy for you. Like it’s more complicated than you’re going to want to be a part of, no matter where I end up.

I want you in my life, I know that. I want to be friends. I think I’ll hurt like hell if you don’t want to speak to me again.

But it’s going to be awhile before I’m free to…

the fact that you won’t reach out for me is a disappointment. Hope that when you see me, that it makes you sad like it does me. I just want something normal please.

I knew you wouldn't be happy in your so called relationship after you threw me away. ***************** you. I'm ****** that you even showed up on my feed, but I'm also laughing inside. Nobody gonna put a ring on your fake sorry ***. You're broke and manipulative. Get out already.

I mean, I know I did apologise but it may have come across as not genuine.

You said you didn't see us having a relationship but that you wished we would have met under different moons.

My circumstances of going through divorce with my ex, was not ideal, I know.

But I was so ready for connection and fulfillment…

That’s all. I have nothing else to say to you, there’s no point

every time I think about the night that you finally admitted to cheating on me, I’m sick to my stomach. why did it take you almost 2 years to own up to it? in between that time, you continuously reminded me that I was never enough for you. you never made any sense. you hated everything about me but begged me stay…