Unsent text message to Noah

That’s all. I have nothing else to say to you, there’s no point

every time I think about the night that you finally admitted to cheating on me, I’m sick to my stomach. why did it take you almost 2 years to own up to it? in between that time, you continuously reminded me that I was never enough for you. you never made any sense. you hated everything about me but begged me stay…

You actively deflect and refuse to answer any direct questions about feeling or our future. There is a time for ambiguity. That time is nearing its end.

I know you think i ghosted you. All i did was protect my peace. I told you my abandonment issues meant you had to explain when you disappeared. I never told you that you couldnt leave me alone for a few days, i never said you couldnt take time for yourself, everyone deserves time to themselves a break. All i did was…

Spilled them everywhere.

You kicked them aside and pretended not to see it.

I'll clean up my own mess and learned to never be honest and vulnerable with you as "You don't know how to respond"

So you just ignore…

Drove past the places we once met each other and were once happy together. I felt tears in my eyes and sadness in my chest. I miss you S.