Unsent text message to Connor

I wish I could roll the dice and just put myself into a position to do it instead of you but you took that from me E. And I really hope one day you do look back like everyone continues to stand firm on that you lost a real one that stood in your corner through the backlash and the backstabs and still had empathy and…

And I mean everythinggggg. I think you learned I know so much more than you ever thought I would find out. Go ahead and threaten to *** ** ****, I actually invite it. I’m not afraid of you.

Hope you’re ready. Play stupid games in life and win stupid prizes. 🤷‍♀️

Oh and I had no idea you loved fruity pebbles so much. If…

Really sucks that I'm actually questioning whether it's a good idea to call you.

Phone works both ways...

I do hope you're alright.

Yeah. I'll probably give in and call.

Alright I’ll tell you. I hate attention from everyone but you. You’re the only person I want to talk to or be around. I would be completely content having your attention and no one else’s. As a matter of fact I don’t want other men checking me out It makes me feel sick I want YOU to think I’m the most beautiful woman…

Being single for over a year wasn’t easy, but I genuinely enjoyed having that time to myself. I’ll always love you, but I’ve also learned that loving you doesn’t mean I have to close my heart to someone new. That took time too. Not having someone to cuddle with sucks😂, but I’ve made peace with it. And if the right…

i'm having a hard time already. i'm having a hard time already. i'm having a hard time already. i'm having a hard time already.

my brain needs help. and my heart too.

With love.