Unsent text message to Shane

I suppose the worst must come with the best. Opposites settle in the middle ground, coiling around one another, settling into bed. Worst year of my life, simultaneously the best. I lost a great deal... But I found you. It was all meaningful....Worthwhile, it mattered, in the end.

All I want to do is message you after all this time, but I feel cruel if I do it. I put you through so much, and I am so sorry. I don't know if I miss you or I'm just lonely. I've been stalking your accounts even though I have the blocked, I read the old messages. **** I miss you. The urge to just ask you how you've…

I love you, but I don’t want to wait years to get engaged, then another two years to get married, and then another year to start trying for kids. If you’re talking about possibly proposing in five years, that could easily turn into eight years before we even start a family. That’s almost a decade, and I don’t want to…

Sometimes we enter a person's life just to show them the kind of love they have never experience before but in return they show u exactly why they have never experience it. You give them peace, reassurance, loyalty and the kind of love they used only to pray for. But instead of nurturing it, they try to destroy you…

The past 10years after my last relationship broke up,

Fraudulent narcissist, freeloading, closet job.

I’ve met 4 potential romances,

Mutual attraction, Ignited & sparked up…

You have no idea how much I have to contain when I see you. There are things I want to do that I never let myself act on. Things I feel in the split second you’re close, when my mind forgets every reason I should keep my distance. I want to stay a little longer. Stand a little closer. Let my eyes linger instead of…