Unsent text message to Jada

Am I crazy that I’m not over you yet? Or is it just a part of a grieving process. Like I know you’re not dead but I still miss you even though it’s been 6 to 7 months. I just want a conversation with you and that’s all. Probably, uncovering some voicemails does me no good but I have to hear you sometimes. Maybe you…

If reacting to stories is considered friendship, I don’t want it. Sending meme’s would count. Playful banters and dark humour, yes please.

I get it. If you don’t want to write back it’s just clear as day that you don’t see me even as a friend. Though we tried being more than friends and it didn’t work out. Finding…

I'm going to stand up for myself. You don't get to go run your mouth off about me to your now ex boyfriend about things I said to you in confidence. Fuxk that. **** you. How dare you. How fuxking dare you. I wont just lie down and ******* take it. **** you. Im already homeless. There isn't much more I could loose. My…

I wanted to say hi. How are you doing? But I don't have the guts to talk to u again. You have done very well in your life and I am happy for you. But I could not reach anywhere close to you till now. I am working hard to reach your level, then only I will be able to talk to you again. I have lost my charisma and have…

I always have to tell a lie. I think it would help in the long run, to spare your feelings. But the truth is life’s never really work out. The truth always comes out. So please listen to my truths

You want asked if it felt good I said, of course, baby, you make me feel better than anyone Truth is it was weird as ****…

I guess the better question is “how many times do you have to show me that you do not want this”? The answer should be one. For you, and him, and him, and that other guy too.

I hate how jaded I’m becoming. It will suck if someone new comes along that is even remotely interested in love. I want to be who I am. Does…