Unsent text message to Kayla

I was lazy often, I was terrified often, I was weak often and I was reactive often. I am responsible for myself and I put way too much of how I felt on you. We needed marriage counseling when we were together but we never took the plunge. We knew our own faults and wanted to live in the delusion that the other was to…

Welp. All those playlists we shared, the ones you asked for, ones i just made to be nice, don't mean anything to you? Today i saw you aren't on them anymore as a collaborator or saved by you. Kind of broke my heart because i really did hope that some day we could be friends again, even though i told you i didn't know…

Sometimes I wish I had your number. Not so I could say anything dramatic. Just a simple hello. I wonder what I’d do if I could actually reach for my phone and send it. Would you smile when you saw my name? Would you wonder why I was messaging you? Would you reply straight away… or leave me staring at my screen…

I should have said "Yes" sooner.

Your name might be a bird but you aint no dove, everytime you come over, we be making love, she got me addicted to crisco (nothing rhymes with crisco)

I was searching for something in my phone and came across this..

If you had a problem with me, we could've talked about it like adults. If you wanted to end things, then just say so. Instead you ghosted me. A coward's way out. I'm disappointed in you.