Unsent text message to Logan

When we were together you entirely thought I was. For some odd reason you believed I was even before I told you what I was. I told you I wasn’t many times, and I fed into the lie because that’s what you wanted me to be. Though I don’t speak Spanish, I am Hispanic which you also knew, you just wouldn’t believe it…

Hey A,

I've been thinking about what you said the other day, and I realize I owe it to you to be upfront and honest with how I'm feeling.

I really like you, and I want this relationship to be something more "real", for lack of a better term.

I think we're in what people these days call a "talking stage", but I would like…

I hate that you treated me like **** for so long, but in a quiet way. You’d take me on dates, give me gifts, tell me you loved me. But kept secrets from me the whole time and lied to me the whole time. I ******* hate myself too for waiting around being with you for 7 years.

I’m so mad at you. Like the talk we had last…

Don't tell me it's still hard for you... Bc it's not. Clearly. Hope you had fun.

—— please don’t question how genuine our friendship was it’s been 2 months and i know you and literally everyone has already moved on but i haven’t. every single one of my quirks and what makes me, me has been picked apart under a microscope and i say the wrong things snd everything has been so misconstrued about me…

I apologized and I meant it, you reassured me everything was fine. Here we are days later and not a peep from you. This is actually super cruel. I miss you, I always probably will. But if I’m being honest, my patience is wearing thin and the uncertainty is ******* me. I am hanging on as hard as I can, but you’re…