Unsent text message to Courtney

I apologized and I meant it, you reassured me everything was fine. Here we are days later and not a peep from you. This is actually super cruel. I miss you, I always probably will. But if I’m being honest, my patience is wearing thin and the uncertainty is ******* me. I am hanging on as hard as I can, but you’re…

I’m glad you know I love you, baby girl even if you don’t feel the same. There was nothing left unsaid. I love you so much, and I always wish good things for you x.

I love you

That's that

You know now

Can we just figure out what to do next

Hey Babe,

I know you altered your pings to stop me worrying - I appreciated it massively.

Conversely, you must be wondering what the **** is going on on my end. It’s been a tough weekend and a **** Monday, massively so.

I won’t go into the intricacies here. But if you see me pinging around, please don’t stress. I am…

Is my wish for this special day…we fit so well together. Will you make my wish come true my lover boy?

Always yours love, 💋

I guess ill start by saying sorry. Sorry for the road I blazed through. Hurting most of you in the process. I've been on a good recovery since it all happen.

Its just been very lonely. However that is by my own making. When I went on a war path of no control I hurt so many of you in the process. People I loved and…