Unsent text message to Thomas

Hey Babe,

I know you altered your pings to stop me worrying - I appreciated it massively.

Conversely, you must be wondering what the **** is going on on my end. It’s been a tough weekend and a **** Monday, massively so.

I won’t go into the intricacies here. But if you see me pinging around, please don’t stress. I am…

Is my wish for this special day…we fit so well together. Will you make my wish come true my lover boy?

Always yours love, 💋

I guess ill start by saying sorry. Sorry for the road I blazed through. Hurting most of you in the process. I've been on a good recovery since it all happen.

Its just been very lonely. However that is by my own making. When I went on a war path of no control I hurt so many of you in the process. People I loved and…

You're done with me, done with us. I am so sorry the man you thought was the love of your life turned out to be the most toxic of them all.

..want to be seduced? Do you want me to step into your space and land the kiss you refuse to make?

Do you prefer to remove yourself from the responsibility it would take to make that plunge?

Why? Why do you want me to hold that responsibility? Does it remove you of follow through? Of cementing and revealing your…

i hate that i still love you.