Unsent text message to Evan

i hate that i still love you.

..want to be seduced? Do you want me to step into your space and land the kiss you refuse to make?

Do you prefer to remove yourself from the responsibility it would take to make that plunge?

Why? Why do you want me to hold that responsibility? Does it remove you of follow through? Of cementing and revealing your…

We have our inside jokes and we talk daily about life and politics and your work and how you are feeling and you ask about me and what I’m doing and how I’m doing yet we’re just friends. My kids know who you are and can tell when we’re talking and seem to really enjoy when you call. You’re helping me come up with a…

You cheated on me and I know you did. There is no going back. Im tired of you saying every man in the world has ****** women acting like it would condone what you did. **** you and stop texting me . Im not responding to your fake accounts anymore. I tried to be so lenient just for you to say you cheated cus im…

So this will be my unsent text I’m really sorry. I did all this to you even after saying, I love you hundred thousands of time. I still hurt you now. I can’t take it back now. I can’t do anything that will change the past or will change the fact that you were hurting and I was out there. I could have changed a lot of…

I've tried, but it's still you. We're stuck with each other I'm afraid. Can't we just get on with this already?? I'm tired of you not being here, leaving me to wonder.