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I guess ill start by saying sorry. Sorry for the road I blazed through. Hurting most of you in the process. I've been on a good recovery since it all happen.
Its just been very lonely. However that is by my own making. When I went on a war path of no control I hurt so many of you in the process. People I loved and trusted. People I called another family. There's nothing I can do right now to fix any of that.
I tried to come back into social media and reconnect. It was clear though I have demolished basically every bridge, threw away every life saver and most importantly thrashed a friendship I truly will never be able to replace.
Here's why I'm screaming into the void. I can't come back, I can't make amends, and I can't look behind. This place suffocates me more then ever and the memories of loss from my lack of control eats me alive and the things I said just stick with me everytime I get behind the wheel. I have to get out of here and if I broke the bridges beyond repair on this side then I have to journey to the other, For myself. So when I see you all again. I can look at you then past you. Especially you dude. Truly wishing you the best. Dont worry man. You have every reason not too.
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