Unsent text message to Grant

I just turned softly, right into your jawline. I see your body, soul, mind... In the way the earth moves. Something about standing outside of time... You're every reason, and every rhyme, and every bit worth this so-called time.

Been a minute since I cried about us. Its petty jealousy and fear today. Fear maybe i made a mistake. Fear that I did the math wrong. Who knows. Fear wont rule the day, but damn. I miss you bad. This weekend was supposed to be so different. By contrast, it might be the worst in my life. Oh pity me. I had a dream you…

Hurt reminds me that i relinquished power. I gave someone the power to hurt me. And they did. I trusted you and you broke my heart. So when i get angry at you i feel some of the power that i gave to you. It’s so much better to be angry and hateful than hurt and sad. The anger gets me up and helps me move on with my…

How many times and in how many ways must I tell you that I want you? I’ve had better first impressions. And second and third. But damn. What’s a girl gotta do to get a fourth? Don’t make me scale this mountain alone. Please don’t make me sad when I am finally marching around the bend to meet you. When I finally peak…

Although infrequent, when i do think of you I find myself wondering if you do too. I know you’re an avoidant so you’re probably burying it right? Or maybe you got over me really fast cs its you who ended it. After all, it was so easy for you to just stop talking to me. After everything we shared you were able to just…

My weekdays are open and free, as you know.

For a call, anyway.

How does it never bother you?

This distance…