Unsent text message to Christina

I miss you, it's been weeks since I felt your touch. I want you. Just you and I relaxing, away from responsibilities and having a great time. I know you are busy, so I have to step back, and let you lead again. Please don't get upset, it's for you. I will give you space.

Boy if I could go back to when we first met. If I could sit myself down and tell me how much I need you in life. That on my worst days, you are my peace. My safe. You're what never let me down. You made me mindful. You made me passionate. You gave me reason. You also broke me because I couldn't understand and I…

Hi C,

I just wanted to say congratulations on the new job, I know you had been anxious about it and were in the interview phase of a couple positions last time we spoke. I’m so very happy for you. I also saw that you’re having a presentation for XXX which is so very exciting! I just wanted to congratulate you on your…

that was the perfect song. thank you. and there's no one else i want to do this work with than you. i'm glad you're looking forward to it too :)

With love.

haven’t seen the sun in a while, but I heard that the sky is still blue.

Heard they don’t talk about me too much, no more.

Last night a memory popped into my brain. Usually I’d want to SH or cry. Last night, I smiled. I let the memory live and I smiled. I caught myself happy remembering the good times. Is this healing? I know you aren’t thinking of me. I wonder how long it took you to forget about me. But wow… I was able to smile.