Unsent text message to Danielle

I can hear the hate and disgust in your voice just talking over the phone.I see how you avoid looking at me at all cost when we do see one another (which is rare) as you avoid that too. I know all my fears were and are true now and I'm not sure that has helped me heal or made it worse. I can't understand, I don't and…

I want to lose my virginity to you. If not then I’m out.

I dreamt of you last night.

Just you and me talking to one another in a park at sunset. It was peaceful. Intimate.

I miss how things were in the beginning for us.

You’re on my mind every day. I hope you haven’t forgotten me. I hope you never do…

Hope you had a great trip. I am climbing tonight if you want to come.

for being my constancy and support

for giving us a chance to work things out if/when we don't see eye to eye

for forgiving the ways i fall short

for giving me the time of day…

Same old ******** where I have to beat around the bush instead of just getting to communicate directly.

We both feel the same way about this whole situation. We both want the same thing from each other. But I can't just tell you the truth because you confided in her privately and now she's telling me to never ever tell…