Unsent text message to Elizabeth

JP, I know this sounds crazy, but I think I love you.

I know I shouldn’t, I know that you said you weren’t looking for a relationship, but then you keep changing your mind and coming back to me. We’re in this casual/hookup dynamic that you initially didn’t want but changed your mind and decided you did. And I just want…

i called and hung up, I couldnt take the eventual outcome of you manipulating me again. in the end, all you do is manipulate and use people. I mean for christs sake you have been hacking me for months. is it because I know all the weird things your up

to? im done with the emotional abuse, that’s what you did to me for…

I just feel like i really owe you an apology. Whenever you told me you thought it was big i just thought u were being nice. I never really thought it was big but its the only one I've seen irl. I know you said u couldn't take it all. I just thought it was stuff that women always said. They have all said to me. But i…

you’re deeply loved because you are you.

You know what? **** this. I am so ******* angry at you. I trusted you. After all those years, after everything we shared, after letting you back into my life and believing that you actually gave a **** about me, I trusted you. And apparently that was my mistake. You came back into my life, pulled me close, made me…

I know you probably won’t read this but I need to say it. I hate you for what you did, how you left, but I still love you. You said you were scared of leaving and thought over it for a weeks maybe even months. During that time I asked if you where okay, if we where okay, because you where growing distant. You lied…