Unsent text message to Carter

You used me as a replacement for the girl you really wanted. We look just alike. Have similar interests. You promised me friendship, then u "caught feelings," then we were dating. I was so happy. The happiest I had ever been until your gf called me. Five years together, sure trumps our years and a half....

U NEVER…

decided to stay one more night in ia

feels weird being 30 min away from you

all these emotions are flooding back

An Apology to a Movie Maniac

Dear A\*\*\*n,

I understand this letter is likely not welcomed. You don’t have to respond or even read it, and you’ll be entirely justified if you don’t. But if you are still reading this far, I want to say from the bottom of my heart…

I am sorry. I am sorry for transgressing into hateful and…

I'm drowsy, but not weary. There's an important difference to be had... I'm not the sort of tired I get when I can feel the cracks in my soul, the life being extracted from my bones, blood oozing from the bullet holes... I know where the time went, and I am more than content, with it. You're worth the seconds spent…

I wish I could tell you how much last night meant to me.

Somehow, in the middle of everything, it felt like we found our way back to each other, but not back to what we were. Something different. Something softer. Something that feels like maybe we're finally getting the chance to start again, without carrying…

Today i wanted to message you and tell you about a discovery i found about our favorite band.

Yesterday i wanted to give you the update on your brother.

Why did you have to make things complicated by your own demise? We could have still been friends if you didnt cross that boundary.