Unsent text message to Joseph

i loved talk today. i wish we had more time. it hurts. i loved your idea about sharing how we've both been on each other's minds after periods of separation. i think it will be very helpful for us. i love how shy you get saying "i love you", it's adorable. i think outside of the box we would talk about so many things…

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so suffocated and lately even ******** thoughts come into my mind. I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to talk to anyone. People try to talk to me and I just ignore them because my mind is somewhere else. I keep checking his profile, then her profile, then going…

The more I try to forget you the harder it gets.

Can I have a break from seeing you tomorrow? I'm sure my best friend would appreciate having a break from my mental breakdown. Three weeks in a row, driving past each other, it's just a little much for me.

And it seems like there's no way to avoid you. My sister lives in your town now, so if I want to see her and my…

Detachment is slowly becoming easier and I’m pretty happy about that I know that one day if I did ever see you, it wouldn’t effect me That I’d have no reaction You really messed me up, and a part of that is also on me I’m glad you’re gone You’re someone who cares so deeply about what others think, how they perceive…

Seeing your name appear on my phone still has a way of making the whole world stop… After all this time, I didn’t expect it to still have that kind of effect on me. I dislike it truly.