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I got blackout drunk the night you told me. I said I would never do that. I know you don’t want me to do that still but it’s finally my life now. I ******* loved it. Loved every second. You were scared, you’ve seen it ruin people and didn’t want that to happen to me. I smoked some weed too. It’s been three weeks but you wouldn’t recognize me. I didn’t change. This is who I always was and I held back for you. I wasn’t enough for you because I was holding myself back because of you. I miss you but I never want to see you again. Everything that comes to mind with the thought of you just makes me wish it ended sooner. I’m going to get drunk again, I’m going to smoke again. I’m going to really live how I want and I will get so much further than I would have with you. At the end of the day I still love you, I think your venom will sting forever. There were so many things I thought I valued, I guess I never really knew how to care. I want to look back with joy but it just reveals everything you did to me. I wish we could be friends, I can’t look at you the same after I look at the moments untainted. You hated me and called it love. After all this I still wish you well I think, I just hope it’s far from me.
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