Unsent text message to Peyton

what happened to you that even love spoken softly sounded like hurt to you? That you translated "I miss you" into "You're not good enough." I have tried to blame myself; believe me, I did. But I can't. I go back to our old messages, and there's just so much compassion and kindness. And that's what felt dangerous to…

I miss you. I haven't seen you in a few weeks but just seeing you is enough for me. When you compliment me or are nice to me when you talk to me it makes me so happy. I honestly wish to one day be in a relationship with you. I'm starting to have breathing issues because of my cigarette smoking. If my difficulty…

I don’t think I could ever love again, I don’t have any love to give anymore.

I don’t have words for whatever it is we had I wonder about all of the what ifs But at the end of the day, people are people & We are all weird.

We never put an official title on whatever we were. Undeclared best friend type of friendship? Two people in limerence with one another? A work connection that grew to be so…

I never hated you, I hated the way you treated me I wonder how you’re feeling, what you’ve accomplished all I wanted was was for you to listen now, I journal until my hand gets tired and I self medicate every night to sleep you think i’m living this wonderful life, but that’s nowhere near the truth I wish you could’ve…

Please I need to come home. Stop with the anger. Please let it go. I will earn everything back even if I feel I should not have lost it. But you have to give me a shot a real one. You can’t ask me to fight and be mean or hateful. I hate that my survival lives with you again. It’s easy to run. It’s hard to fight. To…